"I don't feel God."
I have both made this statement and heard it countless times. Today, believers are doubting God during the dry seasons of their life because they don't feel His presence, hear His answer, or see Him working in their lives. I remember so many nights sitting and thinking, "God, Your Word promises peace, but I don't feel it." All I could feel was the depression that was plaguing me or the stress that was overwhelming me. Then, I would continue to sit there and wallow, doubting God's presence in my life.
It never occured to me to do anything other than offer up a half-hearted prayer and continue worrying. I called it a cry for help, but it was like sending an S.O.S. signal and then refusing to get on the helicopter that comes to your rescue. I was calling out to God, but I never gave Him room to answer. Then, one night as I sat in my self-inflicted misery, I looked over at my Bible. I thought to myself, "I can sit here and remain miserable, or I can do something about it." I chose the latter, and the epiphany I had changed my life.
I realized that so many times we expect God to come to us, to rescue us. What we don't realize is that He is there, we just have to seek Him. So why don't we? As Christians, the very same God who rose Jesus from the dead dwells inside of us. So why are we so miserable and burdened all the time? It's because we're spiritually lazy. We let problems and struggles and sins chain us down without ever putting up a fight. God is giving us a lifeline, but we have to choose to use it. This passivity is what kills our faith. It causes us to say, "God help me" and then refuse His help. It causes us to walk around in the bondage of the flesh because we are not willing to seek the Lord who breaks out chains. It's like walking around complaining of a headache all while doing nothing to cure it.
Jeremiah 29:13 says, "You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart." God is saying that if we want to experience Him, if we want to feel is presence, if we want to find Him, we must seek Him. It is a call to action. Just like a relationship with another person, you have to put in effort. To experience the peace and joy that comes from having a relationship with God, it has to be a relationship, and for it to be a real relationship, it has to be two-sided. If you feel that your relationship with God is one-sided, it's your side that isn't participating.
When you find yourself saying, "I don't feel God," do something about. Don't let yourself succumb to the passivity that is plaguing believers. Seek Him, and you will find Him.